(Tuesday, September 1, 2009 @ 6:53 PM)
oo..the time we spent. says:
oooo....the time we spent.
what a memory.
i remember the first time we met.
it was early may, we both just started to settle in to our schools.
and well i decided to come down for the girls training, cos that was what the three bastards usually do.
it was the hall, where everyone was sweating, training their asses to get the game right. i was playing with imran while you were with the girls listening to sonia. imran took a few hits from me, n hell he loved it.
and then, there was the light showering above you. mybe its bcos of the lighting up on the ceiling or was it jsut my eyes. you were just so beautifull and innocent. you had the look of giving a guy the warmness he needs, and you started talking. that was a blow to me, for second. i thought you were a chinese, and you said " o, urm, im mixed." those words were so perfect.
n so two weeks went by with you on my mind. that beauty like no other.
i came down again that day with one focus on mind. to get to know you at least.
n during the journey down that little road back to the MRT.
it was the best moments spent with you. oo hell. we just clicked after that.
we chat every night. we saw each other, we even spent time even when we really cant.
by the third day, you wanted to tell me your deepest secret. you felt that you can trust it upon me. so we met. fetched you from harbourfront, had a few ciggs and headed back. by the time we walked you home, your mum called. A caring mother, like any other mother. i still remember those words. "i was'nt all like this. my mum lost her trust in me when i had ..............................".
shocked in a moment i was. but then thought back and felt how difficult it was for you that you had that responsibilty. and so on that day i told myself nvr to to play around but instead, be able to support you no matter how rough it gets.
we continued on, having our time together, going into the worst toll we can ever get. we had trouble when my ex-fling called. it was then that we both got really closer. we shared sumthing, sumthing that i was really searching for. i had truthfully love you.
and there...i knew that i can put my faith on you for i had trusted you.
n so we went on...again..living the life like any other couples.
we were really paired as the days went by.
i knew that i had to make us official. and on 14 August 2009. i asked from
you something that i am for sure about. for the first time in my 18 and a half years of my messed up life. i asked for your hand. i asked that i was ready n that i want to spent a journey with you, a journey that i promised to support and to give you happiness. all i asked for a return was if you wanna spend it with me. together.
and we did, i gave my hand adn you gave yours. we shared a ring that we promised each other placing it on our fingers.
and as the days went passed. we just feel so great together.
we were happy.
and yesterday, was nothing that i could ever accept. for it was such a blow to my heart that i shall remember.
all i have to say is, i shall nvr forget the moments we spent so greatfully together.
you shall be missed and loved always for
i can never share the love i had for you, to another ever.
(Thursday, July 2, 2009 @ 1:46 PM)
why do we always have to fight?? says:
damn my fucking life man..
why is it that i am the way i am today..
weak hearted and soft.
staying home another fucking day with my mum alone.
what is it that she wants from me.
she does'nt nag at my brother, does'nt nag at my father except for taking care of him..
each time...even after school i come home she nags at me.
i guess she just too bored..n she just need to have a ear.
but icant hold it. sometime's i just wanna give her one fucking shout at her n leave the hse. but i dunnoe of her old heart can take the pains she has now..
now i cant even do my project. or even practice my maths..
oh GOD why do you always have to test me.
what am i?? am i the devils son.. do you need to see if i have horns or not.
we are all the same okay..we have both, the goodness n evil within us.
light or darkness, half the world will have to share it each day.
haaiizzzz...!!
Labels: my love for you will oweas remain true
(Wednesday, July 1, 2009 @ 9:37 PM)
says:
haizzz..... l
i wonder how mum can take it seh being home for so long.
well todays gonna be very short cos i did'nt do much
had to stay home the whole day.
yeah im grounded to stay home..hehehx
the reason being grounded is because i fought with my mum last nightwhile on the way back to yishun with bebe pricioso, hehex
me mum called annd aked me where am i n when do i wanna reach home n she started naggin at me, she just does'nt want me to become like my dad..haizzz.
Dad, i pity you!!
well yeah while she was nagging she though i purposely put the phone down, when it juz cut off. n damn when she gets pissed. you'd feel like you wanna take a knife and cut off your EARS.
hehehex..
so the reason i came home late was because i went to watch the girls friendly at TP.
Congrats to the girls west team. you guys did play well.
do continue to play hard and be confident on the court.
i know you guys can play real well...n you have shown me that.
though i noe only one of the girls team read this...
so i'll just give the advice to her then..
"play the game with your heart"
well im off to being a bore in my room then..
see you
(Monday, June 29, 2009 @ 11:08 PM)
e-learning sucks!!! says:
what up doks!!
hell a new day brings a shit and happiness.
firstly got early this morning to start off the week with this E-learning from home shit....since we cant go to school, we got to stay home n get online to huecampus.
(it something like msn but instead used for school purposes)
it was god damn boring urh...n student were spamming the
chatroom...so i cant really concentrate that well..
the class started at 9...n ended at 10..
good thing it was n easy class. then we had a break till 12 to 1..
where we had this lesson with this gay or really soft teacher.
damn irritating dude man!!... ask him to bold his words, he mati2 dun want to.
we cant see a shit he typing urh...!!!
but i had to leave shortly into the lesson,
cos got to know my darls lost her ez-link n IC..
which is like really a blow for her urh...now she gotta save up her money to pay her phone bill n this!!
i just hope whoever has a kind heart..if you find plz return back
to ease us...
of our misery.!!
so went on strait to meeting her n made a police report..
n after that met her old friend which like same height as me!...
cool man!!hehehex..
n after that we went together for her floorball training..
( im sorry meu bebe precioso for not seeing you fall, i really did'nt see what happened)
n yeah well the girls team gonna have a frenly against TP 2moro...goodluck girls!!
u have the support of the college west spartan!!
haizz..well i gtg ready guys... i noe you guys mite get bored after sometime..but i gotta end somewhere rite..
well till the next then..
shit i got another class 2moro from 10 to 2!!
fuck this e-learning..
(Sunday, June 28, 2009 @ 1:15 PM)
memory's we shall cherish.!! says:
weheheheelllll!!!
yepyep..
the blog is dead.
yeah well its dead cos the guy writing here was dead
but he's back bebey!!
kickin it n living it!!
heehes
sorry guys for not updating it for a very long time
i noe imran you keep coming in here but not
seeing anything new.
well you know you know
so, lots of things happen between my last post up till now
well school does'nt change, i am still suffering, but catching up.
just still need to work the kinks in my maths..
the equation can be solve but the methods "careless"
that's what my teacher keep scolding me.hehehx
good thing hatta can help me.
well now that school is done lets move on to the parts and parcel of this hectic life.
well the season has started for my floorball n it really is a good
experience for me...the game is faster n harder.
got a match today against NHAC-TRE no.1. good team though.
yeah...still a long way to go for us to reach the top
currently we're in 4th pos in the table cos of innebandy, Nus nemesis n merahans.
yeahh. well aside from that
i had lost a great uncle whom takes care of my aunt and children real hard.
may god bring you to his kingdom uncle charles.
love you loads.
o yeah...now we're into the real part.
i've made alot of new friends cos of this single cute little special friend of mine.
being around her lets me have the best time of my life.
the time we spent together will always be treasured.
no matter what i will stay true to her.
its cos of her...i've met some cool dudes n dudettes!!
like FIR-KEPING, RISA ASMATHIC N especially JOSEPH THE SLIM CHOCS.
n how i met her was like a shocker to me.
((((orite just a little info before i start, well she's a floorball player n plays for college west, oyeah westside rulez.)))
well we met during her training session. n well imran n epul asked me to come down cos it was the girls training. i dunnoe why but they love coming down for the girls training. hehehehex..
so they asked me along n well i jus came down urh..
n went on to shooting a few balls to the goal.
then suddenly this chinese girl came passing by infront of me to take a ball..
she was like" wait wait wait, lemme take ball first"
n i went all macho and stuff n saying" don't worry the ball wont hit you" like as if my aiming n curl is like beck's...hahahax...
suddenly she replied in malay" i'm scared of the ball"
n that was a blow to me. my jaw literally dropped.
i was stun, she looks really chinese n she's a malay!!
so after that i just wanted to try n get her no. but i was'nt able to get it
till about two weeks later cos of school..
i came down for the training, pretended to sit down beside imran to be a goalie.
n got her no. till after training when we chatted all the way to clementi train station.
then till now we're close together..
i have this feeling to make a move but not till im ready.
n yeah i noe i havent typed in her name cos i wanted u guys to keep reading. hahahax..
well its Azlina binte Norman.
going on 17 n lovin her fully.
aitez till the next guys n girls...see ya around cheers
(Tuesday, May 12, 2009 @ 3:42 PM)
school is killing me!!! says:
hey guys...
haizz...life is getting tougher when you move to a higher school
lesson thought here are like up there man..we people who are from ite may be better then this bookboys, in technical terms, but its a different war when theory come right at our face..
so far right now im in one of my lesson, semestral project.
but so far so good...there are some enjoyments in the class..
even though there are like only two smokers in my lecture class.
i joined two cca in NYP...floorball for sure and hockey.
tried taking up waterpolo...and the trainings like hell..
but it was worth it at the end of the day.
to my old frens out there..
you're being missed man...if i ever have a chance..im coming back..
damn man...there's more enjoyment when im with you guys..
to college west...i noe i've been missing out you guys..but i make it one day yeah..
i can only come once in like a blue moon.
haaizzz...well i gotta go...need to get more stuff for my damn presentation.
(Tuesday, April 21, 2009 @ 1:17 PM)
says:
hey guys..
well school has been both tough and fun..
first day was a crack for my brain...had an intro on
biochemical science..n cellular science...
i guessin school will be tough the rest of the sem...
neways...its been long since i hang out with the boys...seem like everybody's busy with school
zul got into RP...only served ITE for half-a year. n he got into poly..dammit wy cant i do that...if not i'll be in my second year ready...hehehex
well the new class is preety fun though...
although there's only 2 guys smoking....which is kinda sucky...but hey..i can always teach the rest..
hehehex..
well...klah class gona start soon...gtg..cheers
(Saturday, April 18, 2009 @ 7:20 PM)
aurhhh.....my body's burning!!... says:
hey mans...
been hell for this whole time....
had to worrk....the past few days...
good thing my school is starting....now i can have some fun looking around at
chicks rather than seeing my old faggot boss....
well this past few days has been tiring for me...n new things been happening to me too..
firstly...i feel like the new class im getting in is gonna be a fun class....
cos hell...we only met for two days...n we are like really bonded....
just a week after we went for orientation....we already have plans b4 school starts..
n these plan include..going to sentosa...yesterday...
hehehex..
yeha i noe...i went there last week..n this week i went again..
n now..my body is burnt by the sun..
lesson learnt: do not over tan body...tan for a specific amt of time.
another new thing is....hehex...im shocked myself...
i've been selected to play for ZARF: Z-Atheletica Red Flamingos.
thats a big jump for me...n today we had our first match against RP Salibandys.
we won 12-2..n damn man..
i miss a few shots..
been trying to get a goal at least...n i miss my chances..
SHIT FUCK!!....haizz
training at Zarf is whole lot tougher than i tot...
i hope i can score for the team...thats would be an achievement for me...
hmm...klah i guess i gotta go guys...
cant wait to see my buddys at school this monday..
cheers
(Wednesday, April 8, 2009 @ 5:16 PM)
orientation N sunny day outing. says:
hey peeps..
damn am i so tired rite now.
body's aching like hot skewers poking my back,
well...orientation was great....
met up with my new class, we enjoyed ourselves. too bad i had to stick with them halfway.
well wadever its is i gotta look forward on the 20th, till i start school, then i get to noe them to the fullest.
well after my orientation i went to meet up with imran n the floorball peeps..
headed to sentosa n had a few laughs..
thx imran for organizing the outing.
n thx again for the 20 eggs...hehehex
mie with the guys..
i really like the sun at the back..its was reaallly cool..
mie, farah,imran n Ayue!!
ain't i SEXY??!!!
Floorball Brothers!
london bridge is falling down, falling down.!!!
(Sunday, April 5, 2009 @ 2:42 AM)
says:
morning!!!
well this msg here shows im still up till this late..
hehex..well the reason is because a couple of my mates are crashing at my
place...n with the game we're playing...its gonna be a looong nite.
hahahax..
so i've done my shopping for school...
n damn,..i cant wait for school to start....gonna have a new life from then on.
o yeah...yesterday was her b'dea...
made a suprise visit to her in the morning..n waited under her block
till she woke up...got her a bear from the build-a-bear-workshop.
saw her smile on her face,...n damn...it was difficult to come out..
i guess yesterday shall be her day....
let her enjoy it...the next time..
i just hope im doing the right thing for myself.
orite..its my turn with the game...see ya guys later..
(Friday, April 3, 2009 @ 12:02 PM)
says:
Morning!!
so its a new day...but with the same ending..
hmm...the day just started for me...n i wonder if anything interesting might happen..
so well....we will come back after this commercial break!
(Thursday, April 2, 2009 @ 3:54 PM)
tired tired tired...n suffering. says:
hey there dudez...
the days pass by so fast...
another 18 days n im in Poly....can u believe it..??
i dunnoe if i've already conditioned myself to the ply lifestyle..
i dun even noe a think or two abt surviving there,
all i noe is dat in ITE, ur on your own...survival of the fittest.
works been putting me up on the edge lately...
but hey the money comes in so easily..so what the hell..
i went on to put work infront of me, n this is what i have to suffer..
bodyaches...tiredness, n losing the one u care most.
i guess i gotta make my stand...i gotta do it soon, i gotta do it woth no regrets.
for sure im gonna miss her loads...n hell, she was one heck of a girl.
all i hope for now is for her to live her life properly.
for those who are reading this....im just expressin my thought jer..okay..
i'm cool aitez....
hehehehex..
orite i gtg ready...need to go werk my ass off again tonite..
cheeros.!!
(Wednesday, April 1, 2009 @ 11:27 AM)
im still waiting says:
what do we live our life for..??
many people asked themselves..
n we are walking through the planks to wherever it lead to.
that is why people dream.
in a dream, that's where we start of our journey..
damn i sound like preacher...hehex.
so nutinks new coming up for me...
each day passing by till school term start..
rotting my self away with work n getting healthy with my floorball..
i've been doing so much i guess i've been neglecting on the things that were important to me.
n now i gotta pay for the sins i've done..
n each time..it hurts more n more.
am i dat weak or am i just stupid..
to be doing this things..
haizz!!
whatever it is...this is my message to you all..
LETS FUCK THIS SHIT...n move on!!!
(Wednesday, March 11, 2009 @ 11:37 PM)
im back again.. says:
Hmm..
feels like i said dat twice orady..
hahahax..
well i've been lazy to update to tell u the truth..
cos its like everyday im doing the same thing..
work..eat..sleep..shit..play game..
n all over again..
boring huh?
hahax..yeah...life gonna be like that once u graduated from ITE n waiting for ur postings results..
so my recommendation...dun work to hard..
find a stupid hobby or whatever to let u rest from werk..
if not..ur gonna suffer..
that is my warning to my peeps out there..
well so far the only new things that happen..is..
i got into NYP!!!!
YAY!!
gonna do a DIP in chemical n pharma tech..
sound really up there rite?
well im not gonna be sure if im even gonna make it through the first year man..
aitez..so far thats the only news i got..will update 2moro afteroon..
lets make it a date yeah..
cheers
(Thursday, February 5, 2009 @ 10:58 AM)
says:
hEyy!! peeps..
noe it been too long since i updatep my blog..
but hey man..im back...
been bz all the time with work n also kinda having a hard time with life lately.
but im all ok now..
here i am back again to give u my tales of my "wonderfull" life.
so far...this past few week...its been difficult.
i had to learn a very painful truth..but hey
the past is the past..
leave it behind n move...
im still young..n we can enjoy it together..
so guys n girls..
if u wanna ask me out...juz gimme a ring...but gotta check if im free larh..
since im werking...now.
waiting my ass now for poly....applications on the 9th...
school will start on the 20 of april...
sampai berjangut aku nk tunggu tuk poly nie...
hehex
well then...my days are kinda bz..since i oready applied for my license..n wohoo..
passed my BTT ready n now i ready to drive on the road...
but with an instructor bside me..hehhex..
well then
later im gonna be graduatin from ITE like finally...receiving my cert...
anything i'll catch up with u guys later yeah..
cheers
(Thursday, January 8, 2009 @ 10:44 AM)
Shit's been happening to some of us says:
SHit
i noe its only like 10.30 in the morning n im blogging
but what the hell rite.
been feeling shitty all night..can't sleep at all.
will my life ever be happy. thats the qst i've been asking
myself every single day. i may put a strait face all day. but whatever happy things i do each time, even with my buddies or my mates. it all feels the same each time. somehow bloggin is a good way for me to juz express my thoughts to people..which is like only a few who read it..
u noe, even living my life to the edge is still a bore if u dun have sumone u can share it with. all i wanted was juz a companion whom i can just share my thoughts, my concern, my care, my devotion but it seems that its been taken away from me. except this time twice. why am i so foolishly falling for her. what is that she have that makes her different from all the other girls out there. she like any other girls, just that the way she show out herself to others,her care,sweetness,n times when she get angry, she's just so cute to me. n o! so beautiful when i see her smile. thats the diff she has among so many which i can just share my life with, but i just wanna share with her. is it too much too ask. all i need is a companion for now. i dun have to like really be in a relationship or whatsoever...it's just that i need you. its you who make my day bright. each time she calls, she make my heart lit. she brings my mood up even at times when i feel really down. but now with her confession to me for my own good fren. i cant beleive thats i've been used, n twice. good thing was she confessed, n im not angry for that. i just feel so left out in this world. what am missing myself for. god. i feel so damn bloody emo.
i count myself as a rocker. i should live my life just as it is. no matter how many times i bruised, slashed or fucking bleed myself. im gonna hve to stand up strait. be taller among all others(metaphorically).i will keep fighting on for my family, my frens and my loves till my last drop of blood. for those are the rules that i imply on myself. n will follow it.
(Sunday, January 4, 2009 @ 11:30 PM)
says:
wassupwasupwasup!!!
wadup guyz...
3 days since i update well
alot must have happened yeah...heehehex
well lets sumarise the story since friday the 2nd of jan.
stayed home most part of the day..
cos i did'nt had any plans..
mostly help my mum around the hse.....cleaning up n stuff.
seriously man....its so boring when ur not schooling anymore.....all my mate are starting school n
im like now the only one left without anything to do. so to all those who are still schoolin
enjoy while u can....the club that i wanna work at sembawang still havent called me yet...
eventhough its my dad's werkplace n my bro werk there before....i dun feel like i wanna become a waiter again. its like its been 4 years of experience as a waiterm, i should change my expertise or sumting. if i get the job, i mite feel half heartedly werking there. but well the money's good since it pays by TIPs, n its all in american money, woohoo..!!!
hahahax....well then later in the day, met up with the guys cos like seriously, its been long since i met the sembawang guys since after my party. so met up with them, lepak at the coffeeshop n chill. waited till my parents went home, n brought them up to my place. borrowed a movie called National lampoon's dorm daze. a show with titties. haahahax. cool movie, alot of jokes.
so we spent the night till late till all of them went home. until the next day. we plan to have a karaoke session down at my place again. good thing was zizi n zulio andolini had a mic to use so we can karaoke.
we sang alot of diff songs, but all malay. some song that i nvr heard before, it was a cool session arh yesterday. we sang aleeycats till night. then watch LD dvd copy HOT SHOT part duex.
stupid movie. had lots a laughs from it. the place was like in a mess. glasses, chip and food here n there. good thing they help clean the hse up abit. but the not cool thing was
i had to vacuum n mop the place till it reaches my parents expectations. i guess my buddies dun noe my parent way of cleanliness. as they went back i stayed up late with elyna on the phone.
its nice gettin back in contact with her. really miss her alot.
so we reach the part till today.
well woke up early to play a match against z-athelitica meridian.
i noe. long name for a team rite though it sounds nice.
we the opponent was a tough opponent...dirty players form the team..
i cant beleive that today my hands can reach all places while playing a game. hehehex
but we lost to them 6-5. played a full period with only 3 men on the line. we could take the opponent actually. i guess some of us were like stoned today.....stupid players didi their own line change n concede a goal. haishaishais....nvrmind we still got a few more games....
after the game styed there till like 6, watch all the other games...n chiilled out with new frens that i made today....
its easy when all of us are in the same age.....so easy to make frens with...hehehex
so now im home...writing all the details of my past n today....
body damn tired sak....but hey i still gotta kol elyna...
hope i can get her this time...hehehehex
(Thursday, January 1, 2009 @ 12:11 PM)
says:
yeahyeah...guyz...
i noe...it;s been long since i've updated my blog..
n well of course...i've been busy...with the whole year coming to an end...with my b'dea party going on n such....wad to to...as we get older, we get wiser n busier.
dats the comedy of life.
so..here goes, im finally 18. the year dat we all have to face to finally be legal.
epul gave a name for me after my party. legally matrep's, suwar pnyer anak.!!
the party i had was preeti good urh.....nobody was ON enuf to strip to their undies or even their PJ's.....either all wanna jaga badan or juz tkde mood. but still it went great....
i was like the only one in my undies walking around the chalet.
well the cake cutting was great....n thanks elyna for the ice cream cake...what u said was true u gave the biggest gift of all. n thx to all the other guys who gave me a shirt n that couple...who gave me a pack of condoms, mentang2 aku dah legal...hehehex..
the only ones who stayed over were three of my cuzzies(whom each nvr met each other)....afro.. n Emy!.....cool ppl to sleep over with...sang a few oldskool songs n watch a stupid boring movie...n played OWOW!! in the night.....burning up the night with the flames of the bbq...
so the next day after my b'dea chalet we check out n well planned to meet again in the evening...i did'nt get a chance to sleep at all in between cos well, since i 18 ready apelagi!! enrol arh tuk kerete, my BTT iwill be on the 5th of feb, exactly in one months time....hopefully i can ace it all the way...u will then be able to see filipe massa nye cikgu driving.hahahax.
athe next day i met up with the three musketeers, DO RE MI dan seniman bujang lapok...met them n went to marina barrage....really wanted to spend my day earlier with elyna, planned to watch movie ith her, cos of my interview i had to the meeting to another day....haizhaizhaiz....i'll make it up to you yeah darls...wooo!!!...hahex..
soo well the three musketeers went to marina barrage....cool place to have a good view of things..
nice seabreeze flowing n with the cool atmosphere....to bad yesterday new year....so many bangla there.....damn smell cannot tahan deyy!!.
o yeah...u will see me n epul in TV tonite with one of the artist saying happy new year in a crowd...hehehex..with the smelly bangla's..
well klah i wanna eat now.....cheers guyz..
n well....lets usher in the new year n leave the old year behind us....look forward...n keep going on.
(Thursday, December 25, 2008 @ 5:38 PM)
says:
merry christmas to all my luved ones n luved frens.
may you all have my blessings..hehehex..
god i sound so jesus christ type..
well its a merry day n i should be merry to rite..
well so far started my day by sleeping late the last nite...hanging on the phone with suga
haizz!!!...dunnoe if i can ever get suga back...mybe i should juz leave her be..]juz enjoy with myself for now...haizhaizhaiz.!!
well enuf abt that...n yeah started my day in the morning...went to gran's grave n my dad's ex-wife grave...every year...we go to the christian cemetry..buy flowers n give our blessings...
good thing is....our blessing are in muslims...
so after visiting the grave we had dinner at this prata place...where the prata sucks....
but luckily the curry was good..then headed home...n went out again in the afternoon to go
to uncle's spence n aunt's teresa place....wish them all a merry christmas..
shit larh my parents...uncle oready offer me a beer..lemme drink larh...
not good to tolak rezeki away tau...
hopefully on my b'dea i can get to drink infront of them finally...
been waiting 18 years to be legal...
well klah's till here for now...gonna head to my sis place n celebrate another christmas there..
MORE PRESENTS...hahahahx...
(Tuesday, December 23, 2008 @ 6:46 PM)
says:
This past few days have been a bore..
nutink interesting have been happening except that s'pore lost to vietnam.
so many chance n they waste their finishings....haizhaizhaiz!!!
well the date now is the 23rd...in 3 more dayz...my results are coming out...
been feeling so stressed abt my results... will i ever make it into poly??
i hope i can...this week, this friday. the result of my two years of shame n suffering will
be upraised.
i have to admit that im scared, what if all i had done is not enuf, what am i gonna do?
i cant spend another two years in ITE, i've had enuf of it. and
then there's the old NS, all male who are 18 and fit have to serve. again another two years with suffering n this time pain.!!
haiizz
life in 18 years have been flashing by fast...i should have made full use of
my younger years, instead i wasted it on what?? enjoyment and messing up my youth...
wth hell is gonna happen to me in 5 years.i dunnoe? i gotta build up my life.
my dad has already set an example for me...i should follow it..
work hard in life, n u will get paid in satisfaction.
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